fairyfolk tales

Once upon a time there was a princess. Like any other princess she was also loved and pampered by her family. She never really understood why people hated the world because for her the world was so beautiful and perfect. Everyone were just too humble and kind to each other. Everyone always talked about the philosophy of life and how a person should behave with other human. How all those people around her be the part of the world which she heard and seen on television so sinful. In her world everyone always loved everyone.

The song was about love that she thought someone is teasing her and telling her that now you are ready say ‘yes’, now is the time. She has been listening to the songs, all kinds of songs and all the song sounded same for her for very long and she enjoyed all the songs but the particular song that was playing there made her feel butterflies in her stomach and even though it was the hot summer day and she was totally avoiding the sun she was feeling so hot and at the same time that song was moving so softly that it felt to her like a soft breeze passing through her hair making it flow, the way she always liked her hair to flow with the air. So finally after so many visits, awkward conversation and nonsense talk she finally said yes. It was the world for her and yet she said yes. For her the world changed and everything around her changed. She felt shy and scared and nervous all the time.

He was everything she has ever read about the perfect prince, so many times her mother couldn't understand what on earth happened to her, why she is not even bothering to say to hello to the people who mattered to her and refusing to have a dance with the perfect suitors who are so eager and others will die for those suitors but the queen didn't understand that her princess was in trance and the feeling was so perfectly perfect that everything and anything was just waste of time and she didn't wanted to miss a moment of that trance. Every day and some days more than twice they would talk, meet and talk about their future, like they had any idea about it. The prince would say we have no idea what future hold for us but I will be there for you always. That sentence made princess love the prince even more.
  They hold their hands and kissed each other always in their soul, both of them were considered to be the introvert among their companions but when they both were with each other they just wouldn't stop, they would just talk about anything and everything. They wanted to hear each other’s voice and always wanted to touch the soul and both are just perfect for each other.She could see her dream coming true and realizing each day that how lucky she was, and how perfect her life is going to be with him.
It was the week of weak moments when she tried every possible way to figure out what happened because that whole week she didn't heard from him and there is no news from his side. This never happened because last time when he didn't came at the time she cried a river and he promised her that it will never happen and it never happened but this time it was not even days it was week. She sent him messages from every possible ways and she even dreamed about demons and evil over powering him. It was just the work load that his master put on him and he couldn't do the ritual. SORRY

It all sounded well because eventually she was princess and he was normal person from the society.

She understood that he has to work hard and properly to ask for her hand to her parents and keep her life as she used to, that is what he promised it was all about. she was more than happy and felt bad about herself that he is putting so much an effort and she is living her life lavishly, so she decided that she will now start to live or experience the middle lifestyle. It was difficult and humiliating to work under others, more than that it was difficult to see people being inhuman but she was doing it because all she wanted is to make him feel that she can live the life and be perfectly fine with the life he can afford, he doesn't have to work hard. They met after a month, he said you understand right that it is difficult to work and manage everything, she said yes but she wanted to tell NO, it is not at all difficult she can work and handle the pressure and manage to meet him every day if he wanted to meet with her, she could do.

She hated people who worked with her, she didn't liked the way people dressed and she criticized that all the people are just so mean and rude. They met after 3 months, ‘he had to work very hard’. She was angry and furious and wanted the answer, he answered “what came up to you why you are behaving so mean and rude. You don’t understand me at all. Have a dream and live that dream work on to your dream without disturbing others”. She looked at him, stared and watched him telling from her eyes that ‘yes this is not me’. She could never understand what went wrong what is the thing that she did that made everything upside down but one thing she realized is that people were correct people are bad, including her.

When she wanted to talk with her friends she realized that everyone is busy with their family, a kind of family she always dreamed about with her prince. They even thought about their children names and already made the house rules. He told her that on Saturdays he will make the breakfast and dinner, though they will not go out that much but she will make meat at home and every time when friends will come to visit they will serve them together. Their children will have the perfect parents and they will grow as a good citizen because he told she will make a fine mother. She couldn't breath for a while but she was smiling. When she realizes that she had gone too far from herself to fulfill the dream they both have dreamed about, she felt the pain in her heart. A kind of pain when you feel and know that there is something inside your skin but you can’t pluck it, neither will know how you will keep the pain low. It is just there and you can’t do anything about it. She smiled because the pain is the only way out to keep her alive, in that way she will live and will be very good example of a person fooled in love, so that when a young girl go beyond her limits everyone will tell a story of the princess and tell just DON’T STRETCH LONG FROM WHERE YOU WON’T BE ABLE TO COME.

i will change

i wish my hands were broken down
i wish my eyes were taken out 
i wish my mouth would have been cut and Swed
i wish my heart blast inside
my brain would have stopped working
BEFORE
turning
pointing moving creative hands into a type writer
curious bright eyes into tired directionless lens
innocent open full of love heart with highest beat into scared emotionless part of body
never ending questions into never asking mouths
enthusiastic eager reluctant mesmerized always working mind into confused worried full of memory ruthless brain
restless running moving swinging laughing banging soul into uplifted one direction hard to turn stiff hard itchy body
they say with pride and pleasure
that is how they should turn into
that is how they learn about life
that is how we become great professionals
that is how we gain respect
that is how we do our job
i dont understand why they dont understand and i misunderstand that they dont understand

teacher as reader.

its the color that attracted me
the amazing sounds
the ambiguously perfect meanings
that i was amused by

i was mistaken by the comics
blindfolded by the text
irritated by the comprehension
hated and rejected because of exams

happy, encouraged, excited for the first class
s trucked from some new words i gasped#
hurriedly looked into the dictionary
WHAT!!! i already knew it

continued text, so many words,
already read but never had thought

now on more than 100th books,
teacher has a very less new word look
"you are confused, read the sentence
UNDERSTAND, don't be amused"

teachers knows everything, yes they should and must,
no,no teachers are human not gods,
i doubt,
if you are teaching then you should know,
or teach the level you can help them grow

i am a teacher and i am proud
i read because i have to make my knowledge sprout

read then you understand your child,
read then you love into the wild,
read then there won't be new words,
read then you speak your guts,
read then you understand world
read then you understand you

it's better if you are reader then teacher
but when you are reader,
you won't be a teacher,
you are facilitator or creator,
BUT
if you are teacher and reader,
you are satisfied and happiness transmitter
you are KnowledgeStorm and learnt one
whom all understand as the case already gone

-pabitra





My friend Santona asked me to write something for her something actually she just wanted some words and i wrote and re-wrote it and sharing here. Hope its nice to read.

He came rushing, eyes filled with tears and face filled with anger and disgust. He asked me ‘who’s the toot*(we use it for slang words) that kept the paper on his forehead’, I had no idea what he was talking about so I said ‘what paper’, he never looked so dissatisfied and hurt. ‘I don’t know who the toot kept a paper on his forehead, written, NOT DONE HOMEWORK’. I was blank, I wanted to say I made the other people go this limit, it was me who said ‘yes, he is so naughty I don’t know what to do, no punishment will make him improve any of his habit, it was me who talked with his parents and then only knew his background, his family and his infancy because he is still a child, and it was me who promised that now we will take care of him because he is such an artist who will do something in his life’, I couldn’t say any of this. It was lunch time I thought everyone must be outside I should take him and keep him safe from everyone’s eyes and tell him ‘I am here, it’s ok now’ but tragedy I was already late, very late. Everyone already laughed at him, teased him and every other person now already knew him as a boy who has NOT DONE HOMEWORK.

i entered the class, children were teasing him and he was defending himself, as he always do this. i didn’t stop anyone, i just pretended i knew nothing about. One of the “smart kid” tried to explain their talk but i diverted his talk on the lesson. This was the first time after 6 months that he was quite and i didn’t took his name and ask him to be quiet, when i was going outside after my class, he didn’t asked me to bring MLTR song tomorrow, he didn’t even bid me goodbye with the loud ‘THANK YOU TEACHER’.

i am not an expert and don’t even have any qualification to say any of these things but i always know the opposite meanings of love, care , feeling of appreciation and acceptance that is why i don’t understand what is wrong with us, why we don’t understand that children are just children, they don’t understand punishment, hurt and homework. They only understands smile, laughter, happy face and creating their own ideas. i have shouted at the children, i have made them stand in front of the class with their hands up and i have warned them about their assignments and i have also realized that they don’t understand any of these things, they only understands love and sharing. we don’t have to shout if our class is interesting, we don’t have to make them stand in front of the class if we listen to them and what they have to say, we don’t have to warn them about assignments if it is interesting and if we are good human or just a human we don’t have to humiliate a child with paper on his forehead saying NOT DONE HOMEWORK.

pabitraTeacher